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Oct 20, 2008 | PUNK_emo_DALE

What makes me linger when you told us both we were the one.

And you were sure about the choice you had made,
or is it that you feel you owe me?
so my tears won't be in vain,
what made you take away your "I love yous" and give them back to me,
maybe neither of us is enough for you,
our hearts you should let be.

I question everyday how could you say you loved me so much as you watched me die inside,
your guilt for her killed you,
but mine you let ride?
thinking that maybe your happiness is all you had in store,
how could you kiss her knowing you didn't want her to be yours?
how could thoughts even mention her name when you said it was I you adored?

could you really be that confused or were you just selfish because you wanted both?
using me for her "emotional stand in" while you honored your "oath",
no one tied you to her but you stayed for the ride,
complained tirelessly and begged me to oblige,
"Please listen to my heart break of the mistake I've made"
"But I'll continue to live in turmoil, because her heart is worth your pain"
"No its not that I want to hurt you but I'd rather you than her"
"But sit tight and support me and I'll award you with your turn".

For months I put your feelings before mine and you couldn't even see,
Taunting and shadowed promises were all I received,
Expected me to fill her space when the title she still owned,
How you could still call her baby and boo still has me thrown,
You probably said "I love you back" but never meant a word,
Kisses and intimate gestures makes me wonder when my fate will turn,
Its either you are cold or lying to me,
Because how an unturned heart could put up with this I cannot begin conceive.

Was it the same with me before she became your "one",
Trying to maintain "us" till our fun was done?
How many "I love yous" did you really mean,
and how many hidden messages did I fail to receive?
How long did I make you happy and wasn't I worth "trying to make it work"?
Why did it take you so long to realize what I was worth?

Will you feel like you need to stay here after our bliss is gone?
Will you run back to her to fix what was wrong?
Will you realize that "I'm confused" is an excuse I refuse to buy?
"Confused for too long" will be my reply,

You lied to me and cheapened what we had,
Decided what was right for me and made your own plan,
Forced me to find out the truth for myself.
I wish I had heard it before I saw it with my own eyes,
a day in history I've come to despise,

You said you stopped loving her around month 2 or 3,
This same love you told me you left me for long after the time you agreed,
how could you tell me this and yet it was so hard to tell her the truth?
is it that you doubt us or am I not worth defending?
or whatever looks good and makes for a superficial happy ending.
"I'll tell her half truths, so she can see that this time can easily be just like the others"
"Not making it known how I feel, I mean why bother?"
"She'll think there's something there, flirt and I can flirt back too"
"Just lessening the importance of what I have with Monique, but hey what to do?"

I wonder sometimes if you defend me or just take it stride,
Knowing you, probably,
cowards do what they do, they hide,
Try to please everyone in spite of who they love,
taking for granted I'll just always be here as faithful as a cold hand to a glove.

My heart will always question yours because your feelings for either of us never seems to fade,
And the promises seem too similar and somehow has me enraged,
did you tell her she was the only girl for you like you told me countless times,
or did you tell her about how you fantasized about spending your lives?

I find it so hard to believe that that whole year has been a ruse,
How could you not feel anything for her for so long and continue to not tell the truth,
or maybe I'm the one who's being fooled by following suit.

I don't know what to think anymore,
the more I learn the more I regret,
Do you love me because I'm just not her?
or you need to forget?
Should it escape my memories that you've chose her more times than you've chosen me?

I see the same boy I saw a year ago,
I was so in love and I believed for the first time in my life he wouldn't let me go,
Shattered when he told me his feelings didn't exist,
My desert like ducts couldn't resist,
My tears flowed from my soul long after my eyes couldn't bear anymore,
Thoughts of you replayed over and over again, I could find no cure,

So I sit here trying to love like I've never been hurt,
but too many questions haunt me for this to even begin to work.
Where to go from here I don't know.
Maybe a new road my heart should go.

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